I am so thankful for a sweet Savior who cares so much about little ol' me. I honestly was amazed a few times today that the same God that created the universe, the same God that knits babies in mothers' wombs, the same God that knows how many hairs are on each individual walking the face of the earth, CARES about and knows my every need. Amazing, I tell you.
The past few days I've really missed having girlfriends around. I've missed playdates. I've missed dinner dates. I've missed phone calls. I just miss having girlfriends. I'm so thankful I married my best friend. But sometimes a girl just needs another girl. You know what I'm talking about! I went out to Target the other night for formula, and I tried calling a few of my friends on the way there. When no one answered, I came to the sad realization (or so I thought) that I don't really have that many close friends. I sent Ian a message saying so, and I told him that I needed to get out more often. I had a little pity party for a while, wallowing in my loneliness. I got on the computer to start blogging but checked Facebook first. I had two posts on my walls from two friends in Port Charlotte asking what we were doing today and if we were still on for Chuck-E-Cheese today. "Ok, Lord, you're right. I do have two friends." Later on that night, I received a sweet message from a friend in Raleigh offering advice and support for Charis' feeding woes. "Yes, Lord. There's another friend - thanks for the reminder!" This morning, one of my best friends called me and we finally got to catch up after a few weeks of missing each other's calls. And then tonight, just for good measure, He sent me another reminder - my cousin's sweet wife messaged me just to let me know she was thinking about me and missed us. She probably has no idea how the Lord used her to minister to my lonely heart, but I'm so thankful that she and all my sweet friends contacted me in some way in the past few days (including you, Motsy!). It has meant so much to me, and it has motivated me to get past my fears and insecurities and meet some ladies here in Fort Myers.
God cares about your every need as well -- just look around you for all the ways He shows it!
Hey sweet friend...
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel!! Although we have not been "friends" long, I am so grateful the Lord placed you in my life to share our experiences and journey together.
What a great post, Alyson! I know exactly the feelings you experienced/are experiencing. I feel that way a lot since moving here. It's so hard to get out and meet other moms here because unfortunately there aren't a lot of fun play places to take the kids to do so. Since the majority of our time is spent at church, most of our interactions are within the church walls, but there aren't many younger couples with kids the same age as mine (most of the moms there are in their late 30s). I'm also one of the one of the only, if not then the only, stay at home mom in all the preschool rooms. It's hard. I have made some friends from the kids doing gymnastics, but bed rest makes continuing relationships and making new ones difficult.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad God threw some reminders at you right at a time when you needed them! I'm thankful that He likes to put us in our place when we don't even realize how much He's given us. It's definitely a humbling thing which I need constant reminders of. I actually was talking to our pastor's wife the other night about how much I miss all my close friends and mentioned you in there. Just so you know, Bristol is a nice place. :) I'm glad we were able to chat even if only for a little bit the other day. Sorry it was kind of jumbled since I had to run a couple of errands, though. We need to chat when there aren't so many distractions one of these days.